Log kehte hain ki pyar do logon ke beech ka rishta hota hai. Lekin mera manna hai ki duniya ka sabse khubsurat aur sabse dardnak ehsaas "Ek Tarfa Pyar" (One-Sided Love) hai. Ismein kisi aur ki ijazat ki zaroorat nahi hoti, ye bas aapka hota hai—sirf aapka.
Aaj main apni ek aisi hi kahani share kar raha hoon, jo shayad aap mein se bahut logon ki kahani hogi. Ye kahani hai us rozana ke safar ki, us bus ki, aur us darr ki jisne mujhe kabhi bolne hi nahi diya.
Wo Roz Ka Bus Ka Safar
Meri subah ki shuruat bus stop se hoti thi. Lekin sach bataun to main bus ka intezaar nahi karta tha, main intezaar karta tha "Unka". Jab wo bus mein chadhti thi, to aisa lagta tha ki safar mukammal ho gaya.
Main hamesha koshish karta tha ki unke aas-paas khade hone ki jagah mil jaye. Wo mere samne hoti thi, lekin phir bhi mealon door lagti thi. Wo apne phone mein busy rehti thi ya khidki se bahar dekhti thi, aur main bas unhe hi dekhta reh jata tha.
Wo 'Batane' ka Darr
Bahut baar dil kiya ki himmat karke unke paas jaaun aur bas "Hello" bol doon. Par tabhi dimag mein hazaron sawal aa jate the.
"Agar unhone gusse mein jawab diya to?"
"Agar unhone bus mein sabke samne beizzati kar di to?"
"Agar wo kal se bus mein aana hi band ho gayi to?"
Ye "Khone ka darr" itna bada tha ki usne mujhe kabhi "Paane ki koshish" hi nahi karne di. Mujhe lagta tha ki chup rehkar kam se kam main unhe roz dekh to sakta hoon. Bolne par shayad ye haq bhi chhin jata.
Ignore Hone ka Dard
Ek tarfa pyar mein taqat bahut hoti hai, lekin dard bhi utna hi gehra hota hai. Sabse zyada takleef tab nahi hoti thi jab wo nahi aati thi, balki tab hoti thi jab wo aati thi aur mujhe aise ignore karti thi jaise main wahan hoon hi nahi.
Jab wo kisi aur se hans kar baat karti thi, ya phone par muskurati thi, to dil mein ek ajib si jalan hoti thi. Aisa lagta tha ki main cheekh kar kahoon, "Main yahan hoon, mujhe bhi dekho." Par meri aawaz mere gale tak aakar ruk jati thi. Ek tarfa aashiq ki sabse badi saza yahi hai—maujood hokar bhi anjaan bane rehna.
Taqat aur Dard ka Ehsaas
Bollywood mein Shahrukh Khan ka ek dialogue hai ki "Ek tarfa pyar ki taqat hi kuch aur hoti hai..." Sunne mein ye bahut acha lagta hai, par haqiqat mein ye tod deta hai.
Haan, ismein taqat hai—kyunki aap bina kisi umeed ke, bina kisi shart ke kisi ko chahte hain. Aapko badle mein kuch nahi milta, fir bhi aapka pyar kam nahi hota.
Par ismein dard bhi hai—akelepan ka dard, unhe kisi aur ka hote hue dekhne ka dard, aur apni baat dil mein dabaye rakhne ka dard.
Nishkarsh (Conclusion)
Aaj jab main us waqt ko yaad karta hoon, to ehsaas hota hai ki wo darr aur wo khamoshi bhi meri zindagi ka ek hissa thi. Agar aap bhi kisi se ek tarfa pyar karte hain, to main bas yahi kahunga ki ye aasaan nahi hai. Ismein sabr (patience) chahiye.
Shayad meri kahani adhuri reh gayi, kyunki mujhe himmat nahi mili. Par agar aapke paas mauka hai, to bol dijiye. Kyunki "Kaash maine bol diya hota" ka pachtava, "Unhone mana kar diya" ke darr se zyada bhari hota hai.
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